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A letter to my parents!

A letter to my parents:

First off, I want to start off by saying thank you. Thank you for loving me unconditionally. Thank you for supporting me in everything I do. Thank you for being my parents. I know this past year has not been the easiest for y’all especially dealing with my eating disorder, but I want y’all to know that you two handled it with such grace. I know it makes y’all frustrated when you can not fix things, and I know that if you had the chance too you would take it from me. I also want y’all to know that none of this is because of you. I sometimes feel like you blame yourselves and that should not be the case at all. You two are amazing parents, and I am so blessed to be able to call you mom and dad. Thank you for taking me to treatment, going to family therapy, sitting through long groups learning about the mental illness, trying to understand it. I hope you know how much I appreciate that. I really want you to know how much love I have for y’all. I hope I raise my kids just like y’all have raised Chase and I.

Dear Mom: You are such a role model in my life. I know I can tell you anything and everything. I hope to be half the woman you are someday. You will never know how much I cherish our relationship!

Dear Dad: Thank you for teaching me what to look for in a man. I want someone who works hard, and loves his family just as much as you do. I love you more than you know.

I know that I take y’all for granted sometimes, but I want you to know how much I truly love each of you. Thank you for making me who I am, and teaching me the rules of life. One thing you both have taught me that I am super grateful for is to never give up. Life will constantly throw challenges at you, but y’all have taught me to rise up above it, and to keep on pushing, and for that I will continue to fight and live my life to the fullest.

I love you mom & dad!

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What I am leaving in 2018!

WOW.. I can’t believe 2018 has already come and passed. This is a new year. This means new beginnings. One thing I am definitely leaving behind in 2018 is the obsession over what people are thinking of me. I struggle so badly with this. I am always on edge when I leave my house because I fear what others might think of me. Will they think I’m ugly? Will they think I dress weird? Does my hair look okay? These are just some of the many questions that pop up in my head when I am out. Well, I am happy to say that this year I am going to try my hardest to be me. I want to be able to truly be myself where ever I am, and who ever I am with. I want to stop caring about what people think of me. If I am happy doing something I want to keep enjoying it without the feeling that someone is judging me. However, this will not be easy to overcome because this is one of the biggest challenges I deal with. 2018 was a very rough year for me, but that is not the case for 2019. I am going to conquer what life throws my way, and I am going to just enjoy life. I know that I will have moments of defeat, but this time I am knowledged with good coping skills, and I will put them to use. So here is to 2019, and here is to finally being me!!

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